Thursday, April 30, 2009 @ 3:21 AM
不甘心也还不想放手
不再执著于昨天的痴狂
我的心像是台北的街头
不知该往哪儿走
你的心像闪烁的霓虹
叫人迷恋却也迷惑
我没有把握
谁在怂恿夜的脆弱
抚平的伤又隐隐作痛
是谁说过不再回头
还是让你淹没了我
还是让你将我淹没
想放弃却不能甘心放手
留你在梦中却苦痛了我
等著伤心不如学会承受
反正你不会是我的
想放弃却不能甘心放手
留你在梦中却苦痛了我
等你想起不如先忘记你
反正离开你的人是我
Sunday, April 26, 2009 @ 11:55 AM
new day~
just a normal day..
but i feel allright ..cause time..time heal everything thats right!and i took a seat ! sport car!damn great damn nice..friend's dad bought it..he just came back from KL for a look of the car lolporsche! show time! hahahaa
porschecayman s
WPG 18~
20 inches omg.. {modified before}
the interior~damn nice the feeling damn syok when sitting inside lolz
acting like an owner of this car..
hahaa
i'm not ler but if i rich then hahahhahahaha lol!
Saturday, April 25, 2009 @ 9:32 AM
mad
why wanna do this to me ?
i'm mad enough you know?
you guys wont know my feelings outside..
cuz i also got my own problem outside..
sorry if make you two angry to me..
i really stress.. i need time to recover..
so only ask you dun bother about me..
i knew it was pain when you hit yourself ..
its hurt for me too..
but then no one else know my hurts outside
you two dont even know..
and i also wont let you know
i just donwan involve others..
my life was black and white right now..
i really dont kno what to do ..
i just wanna release all those stress..
how come i cant even get her care?
why? just a call will get scolded..
so i rather donwan make any call ..
and she did happy enjoy outside untill late..
why i need to be suffer here?
lots and lots problem hanging around me..
here my fault, there also my fault..
really dont un .. how come no one care about me ..?
i knew you caring but i cant.... sorry here
really sorry to you two...
i knew its over between us ..
and no more chances too
its just i cant accept it..
really pain..
its my fault ..
so no need to forgive anything ..
its over.. over..
sorry, i need a long time to forget you..
but now i cant..
so i'm gonna be mad soon..
Friday, April 24, 2009 @ 11:01 AM
tell me why
tell me why ..?
why i wana get those ending? why why why?
why again and again?
i still cant accept..
i knew i lose but still, i cant accept
its too sudden.... too sudden
how come i paid out all but i cant get anything from her..?
i still cant let it down i know..
but why? why i cant let it down?
how come i cant?
how come i cant?
i totally cant...
without her i totally cant be accepted..
how come nobody think if stand in my situatution?
how come? why? why?
why i need to suffer myself here when i saw they two..?
sorry i totally cant forget the hurts...
totally cant........
nobody will know my feeling and my situatution..
just a nonsense here....
really cant...
i never become like this cause of a person...
but why ? how come now i become like this?
here i wanna send a song for myself~
jacky cheung - i should
你眼角脱了色彩
颈巾即将松脱下来
我再探听谁像亲你入怀内
可是你心不会装载
而我只身受其害
仍然在说都不必分开
应该早已没期待
应该心死为何仍未放开
应该不要回来由你伤害
恋什么爱你精彩我悲哀
盼你性格会更改
始终苦等一个未来
你讽刺我人活于五十年代
不用再等一个心爱
常痛哭至在门外
谁人共你正在内
传来声声喝采
应该早已没期待吔
应该心死为何仍未放开
应该不要回来由你伤害
恋什么爱你精彩我悲哀
应该早已没期待吔
应该心死为何仍未放开
应该不要回来由你伤害
恋什么爱你精彩我悲哀
恋什么爱你高山我深海
我应该离开
但为什么我不要？
为何我还要找你而最后得来的是你的呼喊声？
很痛很痛！
为何答应了还要跟她纠缠？
为什么？
直到刚才你还说你根本没痛？
真的吗？
我不懂你
真的不行了
我不行了
结果就是这样
做什么都只想得到你的关怀
为什么我没有这个能力？
tell me why.....
Thursday, April 23, 2009 @ 9:52 AM
selfuck
cause of you i mad all the time
cause of you i suffer over here
and also cause of you
i argue with others
how come?
how come we become like this?
they all said where is your promise?
all gone..!
disappointed
i hard to care anymore
thats what your choice
all or nothing at all!
i cant accept
even i knew sometimes its my fault
but u n her ..
i reli cant accept
everything great on me!
sorry.. ur promise gone
yea i admit i did those wrong..
ask yourself b4..
no more with ll did u even everyday join v her?
no mer rite?
i should noe
even i dowan argue v you
then one week i just get 2 or 3 days to be with you
the rest sure is ur FRIEND
so it d mean i gonna lose all
so nvm d le
i tired d too
and we're impossible
just be friend can d..
i wont mention about those sensitive things d
last blog i post my feelings
aihz..
sorry i cant win you guys
i lose..
Labels: hurts
Saturday, April 18, 2009 @ 10:33 AM
the first day
Friday, April 17, 2009 @ 9:57 AM
你所谓的我
我的改变全都是因为你
因为你
我学会独立
每天自己寻找活动
因为你
我学会看开
但也因为你
我放不下这难忘的感情
为了你
我什么都愿意
就算要我眼睁睁看着你离开
我也没遗憾
就是一句
因为你！
居我所知，你应该没能力自己生活吧！
你需要的是爱和关怀
我很后悔我办不到
如果再给我一次机会
我肯定会好好去办！
不过上天好像不大‘爽’我
很抱歉
对你的伤我感到非常遗憾
而且我也知道我们再也没有将来
对不起我爱你
Thursday, April 16, 2009 @ 10:08 AM
Nothing Else I Can Say
Today not feeling very well..
feeling so sucks..
summore argue with you..
reli sucks like hell..!
5smtg went suki shop acc my ''dai lou'' for a simple cut
and i did my free treatment.. hooray!
no special function today ler..
took a simple photo with the entau ba=>
here comes my story
-historical-
-----------------------------------------
i knew tats my fault
for making you so suffer
u think i didnt?
where is ur promise?
haihz..
suak d..
yea i believe in both if you again
but then let me know ..
u two keep hang out together everyday
did you ever care my feeling?
certainly,
make me think back again & again
the hurts, the pain...
really sucks!
u want friend back its okay,
but dont find her always la
what for..?
u want ppl again scold me stupid?
i trust you again its true
but is not that you can out v her everyday ryte?
whats about me?
sorry i knew that i betray you my fault..
i betray u its from my cb mouth..
i d apologize..
but then ur action..?
it makes me more hurt u know?
sorry i pain enough..
really good enough..
and also tired to try on you d..
if you still want join her want with her
then u go..
i let u go..
i know u very enjoy & happy when u with her..
but can you pls dont forget what u get from her?
u wil scold me back for sure..
nvm d i reli dun care d..
if u still want so good v her,
then dont find me anymore..
i reli canot accept.. sorry
if u still care of our relationship
wait until u stop it all v her
put down everything ..
then only find me back..
and i knew if nowadays i keep quarrel v you
its useless
will make u more closer with her..
i donwan ..
cuz the bad history will occur again
i scare..
dont say i dont believe..
and dont say its impossible..
everything also can be possible
cause a human can make any change
no matter in what situation
so i let you think about it..
think about which flavour you like?
bitter or sweet?
or sour? lol (annoying)
right here,
u can stop contact v me but cant stop v her?
i reli dont kno the answer
its on you..
your decision making..
i cant do anything d..
what i can do is just wish you happy..
in the future,
if u reli forget the hurts,
then just try to be with her back..
cause i knew u quite enjoy & happy without me,
all i want is you happy!!
then i will let go..
i will leave too..
leaving soon~with unhappiness
-i'm just protecting myself-Labels: tired enough
Sunday, April 12, 2009 @ 9:01 AM
11 April 2009~ the night
the night time at mois
not really enjoy at first
cause its too pack
vivien's name already under guest list
but then the time until 11 only
we're late
reached there about 11++
haihz.. sorry guys!
we took some photos
but in the end i gave you an unhappy birthday
sorry ..
she is the main character on that day~birthday girl(afternoon post)
but no longer ,ahaha~
beautiful girl + ?? lols
(note my shirt.. damn it when i washing my face)
opss..
best buddies
may, you got how many months d?
(congrates aric hahaha)
~us~
ending with
Halo - Beyonce
------------------------------------------------------
i feel sorry for spoiling your mood
ur night not with me i admit i'm down
cause of my fault i get it myself sucks
but anyway
happy birthday to you
muacks
Tuesday, April 7, 2009 @ 10:49 AM
hates
i hate this feelings..
it early d get out of my mind how come nowadays i need to suffer once again?
i'm suffering now..
i hate it..
i'm tired of it..
really tired..
tears, hurts, pain
all comes to me together..
haihz..
that time i d tried ..
trying to let down..
but now.. it comes to me again
what i gonna do?
it makes me .... argh!
well, ''YOU'' better get far away from me
i don't want ''YOU''
lalala
Monday, April 6, 2009 @ 9:37 AM
自己
其实我对自己一点信心都没有
我承认我很害怕，但又如何？
我什么都做不到，很失败
你骂得对。。
我根本没资格
也没有这种勇气去拥有任何资格
对不起
我好像没有这个能力
这算不算失败呢？
最近做什么都不妥
上课又不大能专心
搞什么？
咳
烦
Friday, April 3, 2009 @ 1:44 PM
谎言
假话,欺骗之言,没有根据的话,谎言可畏。
有两种谎言:善意的谎言和恶意的谎言。
都是编造出来的不真实的话语，
但善意的谎言是指为了别人不伤心和难过而说的。
恶意的谎言是为了自己不受惩罚而说出来的。
一个为了别人，一个为了自己。
善意的谎言有助于人与人的和谐，
而不善意的谎言会防碍人与人之间的信任。
有时即使是善意的谎言，在截穿时也是会伤害到被骗者，
所以说，谎言是一种邪恶的代表，
但每一个人都会在经意或不经意间说谎。
而我呢？当然不喜欢被欺骗的感觉。
那种的滋味很难受，我真的受够了，我不行了。
而且被朋友背叛的滋味更加不好受。
我想许多人都该懂这滋味吧。
真希望如今得到的回报是长久的。
感谢你所给我的一切。
我会好好珍惜。
不，应该是你要好好珍惜，哈哈！
那么你们做人有时候所说的谎言，
又是属于那一种谎言呢？
哈
毕
Labels: 欺骗
Wednesday, April 1, 2009 @ 9:30 AM
331~
~afternoon~
lol, i'm the last one who post the blog among five of us..
nevermind, normally last one is more professional wuahaha..
last day of march went back my secondary school (pcghs) for sports day rehearsal
the weather was so hot ,summore wearing uniform damn hot,
at last i take off my black suit and took photo with friends~
